Sunday, June 08, 2003
with just a few words, a few minutes exchanged over the telephone, my father manages to hurt me, piss me off, and bring me down all in one fell swoop. my father is an asshole. he's insecure, he thinks so little of himself he feels everyone, even his very own child thinks even smaller of him. in this case, because he made it so, she does. what parent is never proud of his child's achievements? what parent manages to bring down his child's carefree outlook?
he is like an open wound, an incurable disease that won't go away, won't heal. how should i forgive? when he hasn't asked for forgiveness? when he continues to hurt not only myself, but my brother and mom as well?
what else is left when the love and respect is gone for your father? nothing.