vacation. im goint to puerto galera this weekend. im excited but anxious at the same time. i've never been, and the people i'm going with i don't really know very well. this would be my first vacation with neither family or close friends. my head is filled with images of sharp teeth and dorsal fins...hehehe. mindoro waters are supposedly infested with sharks and tricky waters. maybe i've seen too much shark files on the national geographic. but really...i hope all goes well. i should be back monday lunch time.
he hasn't written me back yet. probably hopping mad at me. who wouldn't? what's the worst thing you can do to a guy? not trust him right? well, i pretty much said that. that i doubt his word. how could i not? if his words say he loves me but his actions don't, what am i supposed to think? i think i've come to a point where i don't secretly hope we could work things out somehow. there's too many hurtful words that's been said between us. and i dont think neither one of us wants to take a leap of faith anymore. i do love him, but how could i settle for less than he's willing to give? i've tried before and i ended up being a nagging miserable person. i want more.